Friday, March 26, 2010

THE BOY WHO STOLE MY HEART


This boy really hurt me and my pain is still present
Each day I think of him
Each day I regret it
This boy really hurt me and really still does
He wants to be friends? because?
Each time I see him I just want to die
Each time I smell him I break down and cry
He once was my refuge
He once was my safety
He really was there and now he just hates me
I once had his shoulder and his hand was mine
Once had his arms wrapped around me all the time
But those times are over and now we are through
There were some good times not just a few
Where we would laugh and say our i love you's
Now he is rude and he yells
He tells tale tells
Each time I am with him I just want to yell
He'll say his sorry
He'll feel really bad
Atleast this is what he tells me and it most times makes me rather sad
I know he once loved me
I know he onced cared
Lots of times i wished hed sttill be there
We ended with pain, unspoken words, and such
To this day we are bettter off not to talk to much
When i hear his laugh tears well up in my eyes
Because i remember such great times.
I remember the swings
I remember the words
I remember the inside jokes that weren't only yours
I remember your touch
Unfortunatly i say
I dream about it each and every day
And the day i don't dream i think really deep
Sometimes so deep i wont even sleep
You've cost me my heart
You've cost me my black art
I use to be cunning and koi
Now all i have is an open stye
My heart is open and now infected
I tried to close it but you left me injected.
I don't know what to do
I obviously can't talk to you
Sometimes your sweet
Most times now your sour
What happen to our love where is the power?
I started off saying this boy really hurt me and my pain is still present
And now it is time i must confess it.....
I was mad and i know it, i was wrong
The minutes without you were just to long
I was rude i was mean
I was insensitive to your feel....ings
I wish i could hug you and make you feel better
I wish i could see you now that i have become your debtor as you are mine
I needed to get over you and i am now here
Writing this poem covered in tears.
Once when we were in love i whispered in your ear
Once when you loved me i was filled with cheer.
I see you we once said
YOU...........ME..........TOGETHER........FOREVER....... . . .. . . .
If only that were true
Hun i still love you........
I have tried to stop i have tried to quit
But you keep coming back like a first aid kit
You make my wounds and sew them back up
You challenge my sanity and warm me back up
I wish you were with me i wish you still cared
You really hurt me and now you are no longer there

Under a bridge we wrote our names
I feel as though i am locked up in chains
Your spirit has a hold of mine
For a reason unknown
Please let me know so that i might grow...

ToGeThEr FoReVeR a story once told
That which is now.......sold
Good bye till the end good bye till the beginning which ever it is
When ever you see me
Good bye for now good bye forever
no chance await no chances no never....
kc this WAS you and me

forgiven

God said Forgive 70 x 7....

how easy is it to forgive someone that has wronged you in so many ways..
And so many times!?......
personally i think it is easy to have the idea
but to eternally and internally forgive someone is difficult.
to forgive is to trust, love, and forget = FORGIVENESS
to love and not lust
to trust and not lie
blursting out o my!
to forgive in this time
may seem to hard and out of line
but we must do it because
obedience to god is key
key to the state of be....ing
god gave us everything why can't we just follow his rules?
life is hard and it may seem to suck, but if the world didn't suck we would all fall off.
forgiveness is what god gave us lets be more forgiving, lets love, lets trust...
for me this is very difficult to trust... i have never been able to trust anyone in my whole life
everyone always seems to let me down
but i choose to frown
i choose to let my day go sour i am the one with all the power
i need to let go of all the sadness and greif he has caused me
i need to let go and find the key
the key to my future the key to my life
the key god hold in his hand
in this there is no strif
god said to forgive 70 x 7 and thats what i'll do i will forgive others
or atleast try to.....

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

OSAMA AT MY SCHOOL!!!!!

this is what could have happened today at school................
mock security test LOCK DOWN....

DEAR BLOG ....... (imagination is needed for the next part of my story)
put yourself in a situation where you are locked down in a class room, lights out, Quiet.....
no making any noise everyone hinding under desks due to a dangerous stranger in our school....
here is my story...
right now it is really hard to talk.....
I can only say a few words........
I think my life is just about through......
Right now is an intense moment of my life....
Are you wondering what is going on yet?........
WELL>>>>>>>>>
i am sitting in the art class room (which i am not even enrolled in) writing on my blog in a time of CODE RED!!! Osama bin laden has broken into my school and threatened to bomb everything and everyone unless we give him 100 (fattening may i add) Pink Granny cookies!!!
Just kidding he actually wants me.... "he just likes me for my body"---name that movie..... going on
*If i was really in a situation like this i would pray and my prayer would say:
I am thankful for air :)
I am thankful for doctors (even though i always say i hate them)
I am thankful for toilets and paper to go along with that whole process (can u imagine without? :())
I am thankful for the chance that osama may have visited Obama first and the word just hasn't got out yet because we are on code red.
Just kidding that was a little rude but if i die right now i think god would understand my stand point STUPID HEALTH CARE BILL!!!!
going on.....
(say in a boy going through puberty voice) I am thankful for RINGS i like rings ;)
I am thankful for the the time i had at lunch when Josh Handsen and i jumped on a tramp and I bruised his arm BUT!!!!! he caught me!!! i love you josh thank you:)
I AM THANKFUL! :) yeah
I am thankful for colors cuz where I be without that!?!?!? black and white madness!!!!!
I am thankful for kisses and hug
I am thankful for the chance to be random
I am thankful for my phone and my I-touch :) electronics :)
I am thankful for my NEW family consisting of Nicole, Scotty(ryan), Dad, Mom, Melissa, and Natalie.
I am grateful for food of which i didn't eat today due to a loss of appetite due to a really nasty experience at a certain doctor......
I am thankful for black and white movies that make me laugh like arsenic and old lace (cha ching)
I am thankful for josh who is sitting next to me (he is a cool guy)
I am thankful for computers so that i can get on my blog and say good bye
I am thankful for Sarah who made me follow her to this room so that my last words could be posted on my blog :) (said with a teary eye)

well........... the principle just came on the intercom it turns out we are safe.... whatever
Osama is missing out haha jk jk jk jk jk jk jk

ok so the end of my blog...... Mrs. mama woods your amazing :) we will all remember this day as the day you......almost got chelsea's body... jk as the day..... you almost ......idk name that movie!

haha ok now i am done the end

Saturday, March 13, 2010

this is my first blog!!!!!! o goodness me what a silly thing to do maybe i should use this as my diary!?!!? jk other people can read this i am pretty sure but sarah and lya got a blog then nicole got one then i felt left out and got one too!!! yay we are the dragon group yay stan!!! so lets talk blog i am not sure what will be featuring this lovely page of chelsea*coles thoughts but maybe one day i will put everything together and make a book and become famous!!! no no... i don't like famous people the are dorks besides WILL SMITH he is pretty chill i read a funny quote from him today but i dont have any idea what it ment. but that is me i have a hard time understanding things when i have had 4 hours of sleep and am sick imagine that!
check this out!!!
B stands for BIG BOOT-TAY (that can shake!)
L stands for longitutinal (pretty sure thats spelt wrong but bear with me)
O stands for O M G i am hott (thats not conceeded at all..)
G stands for good stuff :) i make good stuff

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