Merry Christmas to an old friend

Written for a boy who used to be my world we had a great time and I learned a lot. Time has grown and so have we into better people who we are supposed to be. For the good times, For the bad times, may the good last forever and the bad times be forgiven, because life is too short to hold a grudge or say I wish I could of. Love once shared will always be special. But now that we are done it is ok because we better people for what happened.

Dear Boy,

You could imply, that my hugs and kisses are in short supply…

But all is well don’t cry, you will get plenty before you die!

Every time I see you I get butterflies, in this there is no lies.

Everything happens for a reason even during this Christmas season.

This Christmas season is a little different as you can tell, because you and I have been through… well you know.

But let’s not be so sad, not being able to kiss and hug isn’t that bad…well it is a tad…

You said all I want for Christmas is you and depending on whether that is still true I feel that exact same way too!

You have lifted me and my burdens to make me lighter, while I was wishing that I could do nothing but squeeze you tighter.

You filled my life with laughter and made my bad days go by faster.

You tend to make my day, you have the ability to brush the cobwebs away.

Merry Christmas, love your Sunkiss

WHY I RUN

My objective is simple

To vent through my feet

And onto the street

Where it will be forgotten

Ran over and trampled under men’s feet.

And there is shall lay

Without hast or delay

To die with disgrace

For angry really never had a happy face.

So there it is

Now my heart is softened

And my vision clear

One memory forgotten

And no conscience to fear.

*GIRLS*

Curves and eyes

Dirty Gossip and lies

Pretty and pink

Till they do that sly wink

IMMATURE and ruthless

I would feel better to make some of them toothless

Nails pretty and polished

Hearts and souls, their profession to demolish

Revenge, O how sweet

When their boyfriend we shall treat

To a classic act of damsel in distress

They back stab and leave a mess

A face with lips

A big booty and some hips

So needy so winey

So demanding and the outcome tiny

Just more whine and more fuss

Although it’s just lust

Greed and pain

Selfishness and shame

But girls will be girls no matter how lame

look i am the god mother #2 of scrap-a-doodle-jack!!!!!

hands in-twine

Hands are in twin

As the words you speak divine

You held me close to your heart

And I wished that we would never part

You treat me like a queen

Never being un rash or mean.

I am sure you will hold my hand through it all

Making sure I won’t fall

You have looked after ME when I didn’t

And were with me in every minute.

Your hands are so strong holding mine

I look into your eyes and I am lost in time.

Your look that you give me right before you kiss me

Makes my knees go weak and I become a little dizzy.

no one to CLEAVE

you have control of my feelings
the days go by and I don't know why
I don't even want to try
NO more shall I cry
I just want to say good-bye
I loved you....
why do I still ache why do i still care
when everyday you give me another tear
like a rip and a paper cut
lemon juice is squeezed
rubbing alcohol is used to tease.

my hands are bruised and my heart is full of ache
my feelings for you no one can re-make.

when you would touch my skin even only for a second there was something there
you did care!
the moments with you never seemed to last long enough
life without you is really tough.

be there or be not
of this tell me NO LIES
every second you wait my spirit dies
the truth needs to be said
or my tears will soon rot my bed

why can't you put your hand on my head
my heart is in me sinking like lead.
can't you tell me everything is alright?
why can't you hold me tight!

but no.....
you are no longer there
you are not allowed to care
so neither should I
I say I don't, I say I am done, and we are through,
but in my head and in my heart i still think of you...
especially when nights get cold or day become long
I think of you till the night or day is gone.

I remember melting I remember your touch
I only dream and think about it way to much.......
get out of my head get out of my mind
leave me be, from this time!!!!

no matter how hard I try you will remain
my heart is your home now locked up in chain.

my heart is vacant of everything except pain
everyday i go through this and my happiness leave through this drain.

vacant is your home in my heart
VaCaNt......vAcAnT.....VACANT.....
but its not true......
there is truth, just a few in that i love you.
I lie.... hiding the feelings deep within my heart no longer can trick me
I can't lie to myself
to be or not to be.....
this is not me

a tear comes to my eye when I think about the good times
make the memories go away
i want to keep them but they cannot stay
or else they will waste my life away!

I need to breath again.... I need to live again
why is my heart still holding on?
you took me with you when you left
but there no way to charge you for theft.
I know no me no more
For my happiness is being burned to the CORE
I've been lost, at least since your leave
for I am alone with none to cleave.

WiTh LoVe We SEE

Love is PRECIOUS love is sweet,
Love isn't perfect or neat.

Love takes WORK, love takes time,
Love can heal wounds it's nothing you can mime.

Love can be SWEET and it can also be sour,
But love has so much power!

love is rare and can only be THERE!

In your HEART not the mind...
Some say that love is blind...

Love is COMPLICATED and sometimes lame,
But with every new brake is a new direction, a new aim.

We aim to CHOOSE better we aim to be better,
It seems like everyday my eyes could just get wetter.

Life is complicated and its hard
In the roads of life sometimes you wish you had your own crossing gaurd.

WE need to stand strong
WE need to be strong

For we haven't got long!....

Life is short and sometimes fun
and it comes with tears... a ton

I will be better me myself and I,
I don't want to live a LIE.

I will be who god wants me to be
I will be ME!!!

God loves me as you can see
I would probably be dead by now between you and me.

Words are words and thoughts are different,
No one is all honest but no one is indifferent.

God made me and you with LOVE
God made me and you with PEACE
God want us to be HAPPY
and wants it to happen pretty snapy!

He is all for us and we are all one....
he loves us a TON.

when we love we see
who god wants us to be!

THE BOY WHO STOLE MY HEART

This boy really hurt me and my pain is still present
Each day I think of him
Each day I regret it
This boy really hurt me and really still does
He wants to be friends? because?
Each time I see him I just want to die
Each time I smell him I break down and cry
He once was my refuge
He once was my safety
He really was there and now he just hates me
I once had his shoulder and his hand was mine
Once had his arms wrapped around me all the time
But those times are over and now we are through
There were some good times not just a few
Where we would laugh and say our i love you's
Now he is rude and he yells
He tells tale tells
Each time I am with him I just want to yell
He'll say his sorry
He'll feel really bad
Atleast this is what he tells me and it most times makes me rather sad
I know he once loved me
I know he onced cared
Lots of times i wished hed sttill be there
We ended with pain, unspoken words, and such
To this day we are bettter off not to talk to much
When i hear his laugh tears well up in my eyes
Because i remember such great times.
I remember the swings
I remember the words
I remember the inside jokes that weren't only yours
I remember your touch
Unfortunatly i say
I dream about it each and every day
And the day i don't dream i think really deep
Sometimes so deep i wont even sleep
You've cost me my heart
You've cost me my black art
I use to be cunning and koi
Now all i have is an open stye
My heart is open and now infected
I tried to close it but you left me injected.
I don't know what to do
I obviously can't talk to you
Sometimes your sweet
Most times now your sour
What happen to our love where is the power?
I started off saying this boy really hurt me and my pain is still present
And now it is time i must confess it.....
I was mad and i know it, i was wrong
The minutes without you were just to long
I was rude i was mean
I was insensitive to your feel....ings
I wish i could hug you and make you feel better
I wish i could see you now that i have become your debtor as you are mine
I needed to get over you and i am now here
Writing this poem covered in tears.
Once when we were in love i whispered in your ear
Once when you loved me i was filled with cheer.
I see you we once said
YOU...........ME..........TOGETHER........FOREVER....... . . .. . . .
If only that were true
Hun i still love you........
I have tried to stop i have tried to quit
But you keep coming back like a first aid kit
You make my wounds and sew them back up
You challenge my sanity and warm me back up
I wish you were with me i wish you still cared
You really hurt me and now you are no longer there

Under a bridge we wrote our names
I feel as though i am locked up in chains
Your spirit has a hold of mine
For a reason unknown
Please let me know so that i might grow...

ToGeThEr FoReVeR a story once told
That which is now.......sold
Good bye till the end good bye till the beginning which ever it is
When ever you see me
Good bye for now good bye forever
no chance await no chances no never....
kc this WAS you and me

forgiven

God said Forgive 70 x 7....

how easy is it to forgive someone that has wronged you in so many ways..
And so many times!?......
personally i think it is easy to have the idea
but to eternally and internally forgive someone is difficult.
to forgive is to trust, love, and forget = FORGIVENESS
to love and not lust
to trust and not lie
blursting out o my!
to forgive in this time
may seem to hard and out of line
but we must do it because
obedience to god is key
key to the state of be....ing
god gave us everything why can't we just follow his rules?
life is hard and it may seem to suck, but if the world didn't suck we would all fall off.
forgiveness is what god gave us lets be more forgiving, lets love, lets trust...
for me this is very difficult to trust... i have never been able to trust anyone in my whole life
everyone always seems to let me down
but i choose to frown
i choose to let my day go sour i am the one with all the power
i need to let go of all the sadness and greif he has caused me
i need to let go and find the key
the key to my future the key to my life
the key god hold in his hand
in this there is no strif
god said to forgive 70 x 7 and thats what i'll do i will forgive others
or atleast try to.....

OSAMA AT MY SCHOOL!!!!!

this is what could have happened today at school................
mock security test LOCK DOWN....

DEAR BLOG ....... (imagination is needed for the next part of my story)
put yourself in a situation where you are locked down in a class room, lights out, Quiet.....
no making any noise everyone hinding under desks due to a dangerous stranger in our school....
here is my story...
right now it is really hard to talk.....
I can only say a few words........
I think my life is just about through......
Right now is an intense moment of my life....
Are you wondering what is going on yet?........
WELL>>>>>>>>>
i am sitting in the art class room (which i am not even enrolled in) writing on my blog in a time of CODE RED!!! Osama bin laden has broken into my school and threatened to bomb everything and everyone unless we give him 100 (fattening may i add) Pink Granny cookies!!!
Just kidding he actually wants me.... "he just likes me for my body"---name that movie..... going on
*If i was really in a situation like this i would pray and my prayer would say:
I am thankful for air :)
I am thankful for doctors (even though i always say i hate them)
I am thankful for toilets and paper to go along with that whole process (can u imagine without? :())
I am thankful for the chance that osama may have visited Obama first and the word just hasn't got out yet because we are on code red.
Just kidding that was a little rude but if i die right now i think god would understand my stand point STUPID HEALTH CARE BILL!!!!
going on.....
(say in a boy going through puberty voice) I am thankful for RINGS i like rings ;)
I am thankful for the the time i had at lunch when Josh Handsen and i jumped on a tramp and I bruised his arm BUT!!!!! he caught me!!! i love you josh thank you:)
I AM THANKFUL! :) yeah
I am thankful for colors cuz where I be without that!?!?!? black and white madness!!!!!
I am thankful for kisses and hug
I am thankful for the chance to be random
I am thankful for my phone and my I-touch :) electronics :)
I am thankful for my NEW family consisting of Nicole, Scotty(ryan), Dad, Mom, Melissa, and Natalie.
I am grateful for food of which i didn't eat today due to a loss of appetite due to a really nasty experience at a certain doctor......
I am thankful for black and white movies that make me laugh like arsenic and old lace (cha ching)
I am thankful for josh who is sitting next to me (he is a cool guy)
I am thankful for computers so that i can get on my blog and say good bye
I am thankful for Sarah who made me follow her to this room so that my last words could be posted on my blog :) (said with a teary eye)

well........... the principle just came on the intercom it turns out we are safe.... whatever
Osama is missing out haha jk jk jk jk jk jk jk

ok so the end of my blog...... Mrs. mama woods your amazing :) we will all remember this day as the day you......almost got chelsea's body... jk as the day..... you almost ......idk name that movie!

haha ok now i am done the end

this is my first blog!!!!!! o goodness me what a silly thing to do maybe i should use this as my diary!?!!? jk other people can read this i am pretty sure but sarah and lya got a blog then nicole got one then i felt left out and got one too!!! yay we are the dragon group yay stan!!! so lets talk blog i am not sure what will be featuring this lovely page of chelsea*coles thoughts but maybe one day i will put everything together and make a book and become famous!!! no no... i don't like famous people the are dorks besides WILL SMITH he is pretty chill i read a funny quote from him today but i dont have any idea what it ment. but that is me i have a hard time understanding things when i have had 4 hours of sleep and am sick imagine that!
check this out!!!
B stands for BIG BOOT-TAY (that can shake!)
L stands for longitutinal (pretty sure thats spelt wrong but bear with me)
O stands for O M G i am hott (thats not conceeded at all..)
G stands for good stuff :) i make good stuff